Suicide. I want to do it and this time it will work. I'm afraid that if I am not successful, Albert will have a cow. His punishment of silent disgust will break me. And when that happens, I will be even more determined to make an attempt work.
I don't want to go inpatient. I hated all the changes and 'coldness' of the staff. In my opinion, it's not a very good atmosphere in which promotes healing.
I hate myself, my fatness, and my laziness. I should be exercising but I don't want to. If I do then Albert becomes my cheerleader. I hate it when he does that.
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