Wow ... I forgot about this blog spot and I have needed to write.
DrB had to cancel today's session. His wife had surgery and he needed to be home this week. I hope he calls me soon and puts me on his schedule. It really upset me when he called and said 'cancel' instead of 'reschedule'. I feel abandoned.
I am very suicidal. I'm not sure why. It's very uncomfortable to feel this way. I'm afraid to talk with Albert 'cause he'll freak out. I hesitate to tell DrB because he could decide to send me to Two Rivers. I hated it when I had to go inpatient the last time. I can't remember if it was in 2012 or 2013. I don't want to go inpatient but I can't stand feeling this way, either.
I would like to take about 4 trazadone to get some good sleep. I wouldn't die but I could be very upsetting to Albert.
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